Poking and Proding.

What is that feeling? It feels like a constant little poking in my side. Have you ever experienced it? This never ending finger jab in your back? It has been really getting to me lately and I can put a finger on what it is exactly. I know it is irritating the living crap out me. So much so that I sort of melted down today. This little annoying itch just will not leave me alone. I boiled over because of it. I lashed out. Not at anyone in particular. A friend called to chat and I just went off. I just vented on everything that had been stacking up on me. I didnt vent at him, I just used the connection as an avenue to get all this....crap..off my chest. Then later I ran into another friend and told him what happened. He said that the thing that was jabbing at me was ME. His thought was that I was being poked by something that I wanted to do or needed to do but had been brushing it aside or pretending that it didnt matter. He advised that I spent some time searching. I was flattened by his comment. I had never thought of that. Maybe he is right. No, I am sure he is right. As soon as he said it, the feeling went away. Not because I know what the thing is, but because I realized I need to look for it. Maybe a not followed dream or a habit I need to drop or an apology I need to make. Im already a little less annoyed. A little more at peace.

OK To Disagree You Know?

I have grown so much due to the folks around me that completely disagree with most of what I say. While its nice to enjoy the company of like minded people, most of my best friends often tell me how full of crap I am. It is a real asset to have such friends.
I recently had dinner with a good friend. It was intended to be a business dinner but it ended up being several good beers and a "come to Jesus". I dont think either of us expected it. It was totaly unplanned. Maybe that is what contributed to the candor and transparency. There was no arguing or anything like that. It was just a lengthy, open exchange of ideas about the problems that faced us both. Our problems are very different but I found that his thoughts on my issues where so insightfull. We are two very different people and his take on my issues helped so much. I hope he fells the same about my comments on his life.
Do yourself a favor my friends. Surround yourself with folks that you have little in common with. Let them get to know you and you do the same for them. You will find that this diverse pool of knowledge will bring so much good to you.
I hope you enjoyed checking in with me. I enjoyed you being here. Bring some friends next time.