Poking and Proding.

What is that feeling? It feels like a constant little poking in my side. Have you ever experienced it? This never ending finger jab in your back? It has been really getting to me lately and I can put a finger on what it is exactly. I know it is irritating the living crap out me. So much so that I sort of melted down today. This little annoying itch just will not leave me alone. I boiled over because of it. I lashed out. Not at anyone in particular. A friend called to chat and I just went off. I just vented on everything that had been stacking up on me. I didnt vent at him, I just used the connection as an avenue to get all this....crap..off my chest. Then later I ran into another friend and told him what happened. He said that the thing that was jabbing at me was ME. His thought was that I was being poked by something that I wanted to do or needed to do but had been brushing it aside or pretending that it didnt matter. He advised that I spent some time searching. I was flattened by his comment. I had never thought of that. Maybe he is right. No, I am sure he is right. As soon as he said it, the feeling went away. Not because I know what the thing is, but because I realized I need to look for it. Maybe a not followed dream or a habit I need to drop or an apology I need to make. Im already a little less annoyed. A little more at peace.